Cripled, Blind, Deaf

alright i dont get this part but why does god create these types of people, have these injuries or issues with their bodies from birth. i mean its understandable if it happens later but why does it have to be something that they may have at birth. are just might have some kind of diformaty, or injury that will cause them to never be accepted in common soceity. to me i believe this is a type of cruelty to put on someone. why would he not just put eveyone in a healthy and good manner and make it just.. right. dont you dare say that this is to show gods power because its not.. showing gods power is blowing up a volcano, or striking lighting in a good picture. but gah, why this.. this is a type of.. curse. they say that in different religions if you have something like this then you were a horrible person in a past life and that you deserved this and well i could go along with that.. but why does someone even deserve this. god should be loving and all of that but why curse the inocent from birth and make them less then they ever could have been. it doesnt make sense why some dont have the opportunities that some one else has just because of a physical difformaty or a mental, or just other issue that someone might have. its something that is just wrong in my eyes. he should have never have created these injuries, these issues int he first place because it will always be that these people are less then anyone else is some peoples eyes.

Evolution

well sense i am in biology i have to been in class where we talk about evolution. well i have no problem talking about it, and frankly i believe in some of it. its alright to believe in evolution because in my eyes there is no doubt that it has occured. but well sometimes there are those agressive people that are out there that are just STRONGLY against the even thought of evolution and well.. as a person who goes to church and a person who goes to school and must agknowledge the thought of evolution i must say that it makes some sense that it is possible for it. yes i know that god created everything on earth but no it does not say that he limited everything to stay exactly the way that it was once he created it. some things must change in order to survive and i think that is what evolution is about. i do not believe however that humans came from monkeys.. because that is just weird? i think that we are far to different for us to be from each other and i think that god made us specifically in his own image to be apart from the rest of them. i find that alot of people are just scared to even think of the possibility of evolution and some think tha it is just plain.. evil. but i am here to state my opinion  that we are aloud to believe in evolution but also be able to be a christian. lets all be mature about this and say that we are intitled to our own opinions. and this is something that i will conclude things in this, why would god limit every animal to stay frozen forevery? why would he not let them grow and become something bigger and better then before.

Honoring Your Father And Mother

In the bible it was one of the cammandments that you were to honor your father and mother and i believe that in the old days it was also punishable by death if you struck your father?
to me the whole "honor your father and mother" means that you love and respect them to the best of your abilities, you do as your told when your told, you dont disobey them, you always try to earn their praise.
-truthfully? i dont think this is much of him to ask of you. loving your parents? easy, doing as they say? easy, respecting them? easy. well all of this is for me. i dont have one problem with loving my mother and father, i dont have a problem with doing what they say and i have no problem with respecting them because i do. i think that i am oddly close to my parents for some reason. i hear all the kids at school COMPLAINING that their parents grounded them because they did something INSANELY stupid and well i can agree with the parents. some girl said she smacked her mom and i imedately jumped in because that in my eyes is so wrong.. she deserved to be sent away somewhere because that is horrible. honoring your father and mother is something that is one of the things you should be born to do, something you should be naturally able to do, because they above all else on this world love you as much as anyone else ever could.
-exceptions, possibilities, what if a child is in an abusive home? a home where they are neglected and that they are forced to find food elsewhere? a home where  they are molested? what then? i think that there are a few exceptions that are due to be made in this one and important commandment. every parent as the tools to either make their child loving or make their child a evil thing. sometimes i think it is ok to hit your parent if you are forced to, as in an abusive home, but besides that i see no loose ends to this commandment?
-punishable by death? heck no. but punishable indeed. a child who disobeys, disrespects, and htis their parents indeed does deserve a measurable punishment, and no i am not clear of any of this, i know for a fact that i have done it before but i am just saying.. its wrong.. and if god believes that it is important for a reason then i think we should all take it into account.

Baptizm

An ancient thing that was used back in the days when jesus was here or there but yeah.. i really dont see what the point of the whole thing is -.- sure its an important thing that we all are "supposed" to do before we die because its some kind of a good thing or whatever but all i really see is you being put in a thing of water. why is the water important? why cant the preacher or whatever just say all that stuff without it and say that all of your sins are forgiven? i mean i know that its an important thing because jesus got it done by his cousin or something like that but i really dont see the significance in the whole idea of getting baptized. and i really dong think i am going to ever go get it done for myself because i really dont see it as an important thing. braxton got baptized when he was like eight -.- maybe older and well at that time all i bet he saw in doing it was that he was getting a free bath. my mom got it done the same time and well she was probably in her early twenty's? maybe thirty's but yeah.. i dont think it can have any special meaning for it. some people say that if you  dont get it done that you are not "saved" and well blah to them. i dont think i wan to get one. eh i heard some story about some old guy who got baptized on his last year of life because he wanted his sins to be almost non existent whenever he died so i think that would be a smarter idea then just getting it to get it over with. so statements and questions and concerns would be as fallowed
Statements, baptizm.. eh i dont think i want to get it done, it seems like something non important even though it apparently is
Questions, is it important o.O does it have any true meaning to it that could potentially make or break someones chances of going up there.. ya know.. there!
Concerns, Got any?

Avoiding Mainstream Christianity

Gah i swear this is something that i think will always be out there but something alot of people like myself will have alot of trouble doing. avoiding the mainstream christianity. basically meaning going to church for the habit, the continuous schedule of doing it but not for the right reasons like going to learn more about god.
- i myself can honestly say that i am a definite mainstreem Christianity goer or whatever you would call this thing because i go for no other reason but besides the fact that i have to. if i ever had the chance not to go to that church i would not. there is no reason for me to go there and i have no real attachment to it. i used to go because i like to hang out with friends and that was my reason but no i just honestly could care less about going to it or not. and yes i know that this is a wrong thing to do because i am going for all of the wrong reasons but still its not about me its about learning how to avoid it, and that other people are also doing it today.
-how do you avoid this "mainstream Christianity" that is going on today in society. good question but honestly i dont really know but the only thing i can guess for you to do is to create a relationship with god. if that is the reason you should be going, it leads me to believe that that is the thing that could help you avoid the mainstream. read your bible! pray more! do something so that you can grow with god more.. really people.. i dont know what else to say to you? i mean i know i seem like a hypocritical but geez its the truth. im just a lazy person who does not feel like reading that book and i dont remember or pray as much as i should.but still i am here to inform you about it and what i think we should do about it. so basically, pray, read your holy book, and just.. try to get closer to god and that will hopefully intern make you want too go there more for the learning of him instead of meeting your friends, or just going for the routine.

Thanksgiving, Being Thankful

Well, what started up as something that the pilgrims and the native americans did in the beggining of our country ended up becoming this giant system that we all know and kidna celebrate in our country today. but do you know the meaning? i know what i think it is.
Whats your meaning of thanksgiving? Just.. saying "oh i am thankful for this, or that, and of course this"
My Meaning, whenever i am asked the statement what are you thankful for i would give out a responce exactly or close to this one "i am thankful for my mother who is always there for me, my father who provides for me, my brothers and sister who support me, my friends who encourage me, and i am thankful that i am living today with a good life that i have" yes.. sounds kinda generic but i am thankful for all of those things in life and thats mainly all i am thankful for right there. family like i always say is the number one thing in my life and i always will stick to that no matter what.
The average person in america would probably not even think of thanksgiving as a day to give appreciation for all the things that are good in your life that you have and all of the friends and family that you also have. they mostly think about the food that they are going to stuff down their throats and sometimes they even just dont celebrate it at all.. eh i wouldnt blame you. i dont think the whole food thing and all of this extra work should kinda be neccessary to celebrate thanksgiving properly. but i do think that you should look on this day as a day tha tyo uare supposed to acknowledge all of the good things that you do have in your life.
Melanie, ah wow this was pretty cool. i was watching "the x factor" the other night and well their theme for the week was "thankful" what are you thankful basically. well some people said friends, some people said boyfriends, most said mother, father, daughter but well this girl shockingly said that she was thankful for god and everything that he has done in her life and well i was kinda in shock that she just came out on live television and said this. i mean most people dont do this and well she came right out and said it. her statement was basically "everyone in my life has let me down atleast one before but i will always know that he will never let me down" and well gah.. that really made me think for a little bit.. yes everyone does let you down in your life.. and well she really made god seem good that night on that show.. let me tell you.. i was like woah.. gifted.. she said that whenever she was done and had no where to go she was thankful that she got to talk to him and let him do all of the work.. powerful stuff.. so now you should be able to say that i am thankful for god working in my life today even though i sometimes dont even realize it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jENnBZ11yg

Moses

one of the greatest movies that i have seen in my young life and one of the oldest and yet most familiar stories that we have to know about. there are some things that are told in the story and there are some things are probably not told in the story but how bout i just try to expand this a little bit more..
beggining.. well we all know he was some poor baby born and well in the time when the pharoe was all like "OH no those little isrealites are over populating.. might as well kill all the new borns by feeding them to crocs.." and well the mom put him in a basket and pushed him down a river hoping he would miraculously get away in safety.. [REALLY lady? you dont want him to get eaten by crocs but you put him in a river filled with boats.. and hippoes and all other types of jacked up animals.. ] and well the princess? or someone royal finds him and raises him alongside his brother [fake] and well he apparently doesnt even know where he comes from untill he is some late teenage kid.
QUESTIONS : what the heck? there are a few faults in this that i am no so certain about at the moment.. why would this lady just not even be curious about where the basket with a baby inside and where it came from? if these egyptians have apparently know hearts and are ruthless just jacked up people why didnt she just throw it away or make it a slave because it didnt have pure blood of a king? also.. how JACKED UP is this.. "feeding all of the new borns to a bunch of crocs because the isrealiates are over populating the area" gosh people.. you must have had some seriously jacked up time beause that is just horrible.. new inocent things and you are just slaughtering them.. what in the world could have gone wrong in their minds to have made them so messed up in the head.. its kinda.. no really disgusting to think about?
-relationships to the present.. to the past.. to the future..
we all know of the mass murderer.. phschopath adolf hitler who you know.. kinda slaughertered millions of jews in various ways.. gas.. just shot.. probably worse things that we dont even know about.. again? what is wroing with him? i see know possible way that his child hood was so jacked up that he thought that these people were so horrible? and besides the people that he claimed to be perfect "blue eyes, blond hair" he didnt have any of these qualitites so this just doesnt make sense either.
future.. what on earth is possible in the world.. we dont know.. often we think of machines taking over and slaughtering off all man kind "terminator" but gah is it possible? is there always going to be a time of no peace in this world.. moses' BEGINNING has so much deapth into it and so much relevence to the stuff that has gone on recently and the stuff that is still very likely to go on in the future that we dont even know it..
i dont get why there are so many deffective people in the world, why god just makes these monsters that walk the earth and why he lets so much jacked up stuff happen and usually not do a thing about it for a while.. its so confusing and its just aggravating at times.. he had the power to end egypt right there.. but no babys died.. who cares if their pride should crumble down.. no one deserves to die at someone elses expense

Holding Your Tongue, My Tongue

One of the hardest things to do and yet it is such an important thing to do. finding the will to not speak your  mind about something that drives you up the walls is sometimes the hardest thing that you can ever do. you choose not to say anything about something that has created this drive inside of you. you either are preventing yourself from saying it because of two reasons, afraid its to "harsh or rude" or "not appropriate". and well either way i find this difficult to do but yet as we learned tonight that this is an important thing to do.. Holding your tongue can either be a good thing or a bad thing. you can make it a good thing if you speak before you think and change this habit so that you hold your tongue until you are certain that you are ready to speak. or on the other hand it can back fire and prevent you from saying something that is indeed very important to say.
    My Tongue. My Problem. Lets just say from my opinion that i do hold my tongue very well in my eyes whenever i have had to. but in some other cases i do in fact speak before i think about my words which is always something that i should work on because i notice that i was a fool later on after i talk. but also i think that i can sometimes hold my tongue and my emotions back too much. and after i hold and regret holding it.. let me tell you something that feeling is just not good at all. tonight for example something happened and well i felt the need to blurt out, yell out, leave the room, punch a wall and well as you can see i did no such thing. instead i do the unhealthy thing and bottle it up. so can this possibly be an unhealthy thing to keep everything kept secret inside of you? i have heard from a few study's that indeed it is because you are just not releasing all your stress. what do i do..
-well just learned some other news about me not holding my tongue good enought.. need some prayer shockingly..

Hell Why? Hell My Imagination

Fair Warning, not going to be putting all i could into this because it has to much information to put into this topic and i dont want to shame it.
-There is a few things that i have always questioned about hell, why its there, and other stuff like that but i will start this off by saying
i dont want to go there
-GIANT QUESTION, why is it there? yes i know that it is there because statan was cast into it by god after all that ancient mess that went on and yes i know that god throws anyone who does not believe in him into that dark burning whole for all eternity but yeah that doesnt answer my question. why is it there? to me this is a disgusting creation and something that god should have never made in the first place. he in my eyes is just torchering people and it really just makes me twinge at the thought of people for an eterninty suffering.. yes they did not belive in him but no man deserves to burn. that is a sin that god told us not to commit. not to commit murder, and that falls under the lines of torcher also. and this is pure torcher. he is allowing the devil to torcher those people. no one deserves that.. put them in some place away from god where they can have their soceity and let them be in a jail and be with their friends for all eternity but goodness.. no need to burn people.. if god cant sin, then why is it that he has thought up this corrupt idea to put people for all eternity. i will never agree with this and i will never accept the fact that he conjured up this mess.
-Whenever I ever think about hell my mind always thinks of the same thing. people with burn flesh with each other burning alive, screaming crying with their children and friends around them.being just tourchered day in and day out and well i just dont think its a pleasant place at all.. if god has the power then why didnt he just poof the devil out of existence and all of the demons with him. just put all these people in another spot.  back on earth to live forever. a place of fire, and screaming, crying, suffering, no happiness is a nightmare in my eyes that i would wish on no one. and for a "loving" god as he is supposed to be, i dont know how he can either.

Mourning

Alright serious topic and i know that it is a inbred human characteristic that we all have and feel whenever we lose someone. but i have a question about this, is mourning wrong? the bible often says that jealousy is a sin. and well is mourning pretty much the same thing as jealousy? i mean in my opinion it is. we are pretty much jealous that our family member is now in heaven. and well i think that sometimes that mourning can be a bad thing once it goes to far, and alot of the times this does  happen. whenever you lose someone you go through the time of mourning for your lost one and well some people exceed this a little long. you find them going into a depression, or a period of long sadness, and yes this is a bad thing. mourn for the lost but also be happy that they have gone to be with god [hopefully]. so pretty much the question is, is mourning wrong? or is it a purely normal thing that is alright?
god has several rules and well how far do we take it? do we just expand it to everything and guess if things are right or wrong?
Yoda (star wars) “Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the Force. Mourn them do not. Miss them do not. Attachment leads to jealously. The shadow of greed, that is.”  and that makes you think

Relationship With Others, Relationship Relationships, And Relationship With God

Relationships, 
a  very.. important thing to have in life but sometimes a more harmful thing then a good thing to have. a relationship is something that one person has with another meaning that you have a close bond with another. but sometimes.. relationships can go bad. relationships with family is something that is almost born into you to have. having a close bond with your mother and father and sometimes siblings is just good to have. but the trick is to a relationship as you get older you try to expand this. with others, and this is when it goes wrong. relationships with other people sometimes and alot of the times leads to dissapointments and to cause a lot of heart ache. when you  you become serious friends with someone right at that moment you have created a relationship. and from that moment on you are at risk of being hurt because of disapointment or of other reasons. but the question is. is it worth it to have these relationships. to have this interactions with people in my opinion is good even with the chance of having of being let down. have a relationship with friends is something that will alow you to grow and become closer to others and increase your social skills.
Relationship Relationships
Whenever you get older into your teenage years you can atempt to create a junior special relationship with someone meaning a girlfriend/boyfriend and well this is when it gets exceptionally difficult. in my opinion, and im going to tell you straight up, are not worth anything. not worth the chance. not worth the effort. when you get into one of these suckers you put your entire trust into these people and then it never fails that they end in a horrible or a bad way. 99.99 percent of the time they end in complete failure after awhile.. i for one dont like the idea of relationships and i dont think that i want to be one for a while. yes you can have special feelings for someone and yes its a good thing but i think once you bring that stupid title into the whole matter it goes plain wrong. you have to many issues going on with each other. sometimes you get the impression that you have to watch each other and see that your not talking to any other boy/girl. and this is when it gets bad. in a normal relationship you have no set of rules that you have to fallow. this one you are pretty much having to fallow rules.. and this is why i dont like it. you find obligated to fallow certain things and well this is why i disapprove of a title. you can be happy with some and have a relationship without the term. you can love someone without being married, without being girlfriend/boyfriend, or even going out. but i think its better to just not have the title and work it that way. once you have the title its all ruined.
Relationships With God
now this is something that i find to have a little bit more work to have to be put into it. a relationship with god is something that in my eyes does not come easy at all. he is  not a person that you can just go up to and have a common conversation with, hug, grow up together, create a eye to in talk. and this is why i get confused with this. people say that you need to have a relationship with god but the real question is  how. what is it that you mean by saying you need to have a relationship with god? just praying all of the time? just.. doing good things? it just does not that much sense to me at all. yes i know that you are supposed to do all of these things. but i for one KNOW that i do not have a good relationship with god. i have a few reason in which i find put my excuses.
1) lack of knowing how
2) lack of time
i dont know how i am supposed to create this relationship with him and i know that i have been told of all this before but whenever i am told all of this stuff it is hard to understand. and also i dont find the time to pray all of the time, to do all of these "good things" that they say we are supposed to do and i just do not think that i am trying at all. i need the answers and i want to know why cant is just come easier to us. there are alot of questions in this world and about god but a giant question and problems that we all have is relationships and this is why i have decided to make this topic, i know that i expanded greatly on  this topic but.. help me out if you can

Reply To Previous Blog / Blog of Day

Being kind is an awesome way to show your faith and make people think about your motives. But I can't just leave it at that. I got to challenge you too. How can you be kind out of your comfort zone? How do you match the anger you rightly feel in the Molestation blog with the kindness you see here? How do you put these various parts of your life together to create an impact for Christ? REALLY think about this and get back to me with an answer. Either another blog or email or something. Apply this to your life in a way that challenges you and grows you closer to God. Big points for making an impact for Christ.
Andrea,
Took me awhile to think of how to respond to this but the only thing that i could even come to a conclusion for is that you would have to learn to be kind to those you  hate. if you are truelly chirst like you wont have the disdain for people and not be kind them and show christ. if you are a real christian you will love everyone and be able to show kindness to those you even dont hate. i know that in some cases there are people that i really dont like but i am able to still show the kindness that they deserve. sometimes you cant be mean to someone all the times and its not even right to do that to anyone. you cant hold a strong grudge against someone even though you want to [and yes i do hold grudges]. you are supposed to let go of these things by showing kindness and growing close to one another again. I believe that if someone can show kindness to someone that they dont normally show to someone, maybe to someone that they dont particullarly like, or hate, if you do still show kindness you are showing christ like actions toward them and that wills how. getting out of your comfort zone sometimes is the thing that can make you shine. whenever someone feels comfortable about something they dont usually put so much effort into something. i know for a fact that when i first started in art i was wayy out of my comfort zone and well i had to go all out on those projects and stuff so that i could still pass, you can translate this to another way, what if you are in the homeless shelter and you know that some of these people could potentially be druggies or people that deserve to be in the slumps, you still have to show them kindness that they deserve regardless of how you feel about them. this is what Christ would do for them and you should do it also.

The Kind Samaratin

the old story that we all know and have heard and learned to know by heart, and if not, i will refresh your memory right now,
there once was this guy or something and then he got robbed, all his money, all his clothes and was left for dead and then a priest walks past him and just ignores him, then some other guys does the same thing, but then some kind guy comes up to him and helps him, pays for him to stay at an inn, and yeah he becase the KIND SAMARATIN :D
     The modern version, have you ever seen someone that has fallen down on the street? sometimes you ask yourself, oh my god.. should i help them or not? well of course you should! kindness is shown by your actions to people whenever they need you the most and dont even ask for it. sometimes whenever you are at the store and someone is having trouble opening the door or getting their cart out or something you are supposed to ask if they need help even if they dont necessarily need you help or even send you away. i know on several accounts whenever i was with my mom and walmart and well we have so many people in our family we know we are going to have this huge buggy full of junk and well there was this one time we got in line and there was this father and this kid who had only 3 toys but was stuck behind us. so i tried to be nice and say hey you can get in front of us so that you dont have to wait for all of this but yeah they rejected the idea but that was alright because i felt good inside that i tried to be nice and help them speed up their time. even doing the smallest thing for someone who  needs it goes a long way.
     meaning of the story and well i said this a few times but, showing kindess to others is a nice way to show your faith, even without saying it, actions speak louder then words, and yes people notice sometimes if you are a christian if you act the way you should and how god wants us to. learn something today! do the right thing!!

Make Up - Young Teen Super Christians / Reaching Out

The one thing that bugs me about some kids at my schools is that they pose to be a super christian which in my book means that they think that whatever you do is wrong in the eyes of god [which technically it is] but they also think that they are so close to god that it makes everyone else look bad they try to make you feel bad about yourself on the inside because you are not like them, not close to god as you should be, or pose to be. but i have found out that my other friend, dear annie, is a way better christian than these people are. she is more of the quite type of person but she is reaching out to almost everyone and it is working really good lately. she asks everyone to come to her church on sunday, she asks you to come to their revival [yes even asked me] and i have actually asked my mom if i could go a few times but of course the ride was not available. and shockingly she has converted alot of people into start to go to her church. the funny thing is, she does less amount of yellig and preaching at us, but she gets way more people to come to her church. i wonder why. maybe a simple invitation to hang out with friends at a church is better and has a better possibility into blossoming into something better, is better then yelling at people and judging them for things that they are not doing at the time. who knows if you had these types of people as a kid in highschool and or middle school but i know that i have them and i also know that they make themselves look like a fool. while annie is bringing people closer to the church with a magical phrase called "reaching out". and yes, i have even thought about it to myself that if her church worked out better for me, then i would consider changing there. but hey thats not going to happen  most likely but guess what? that is the power that god has given her, the power to reach out and connect to people.

Molestation

wow.. i am currently reading this book named "forged by fire" and oh my gosh i about puke/want to cry every three seconds that i read it because its so darn messed up and sad! i don't care if you have not read it yet but i am going to tell you anyways.. there is this black kid who has the neglecting drugged up mother and then the son ends up accidentally burning down the house and the mom is sentenced to jail for six years because of neglect and then he goes to live with his loving aunt. and then she ends up dieng of a heart attack and then he goes back to live with his mother. and then his stepfather is molesting his half sister and there is nothing that he can do about it, the mother and everyone in the house is being abused by the step father. and the step father said if the girl tells anyone that he is molesting her then he will throw her cat in the oven and eat her! OH MY GOD its revolting to even read.. its really astonishing how much i can get into this book and just feel for these imaginary people.. even though there very well could be kids and people going through situations just like this in common society these days.
     i seriously can not even fathom about what these kids and people are going through every day of their lives. they must be eaten up inside and nothing but a small void is left to consume inside of them this book may only have 150 pages but in these pages you feel for these people with all of your heart and are genually concerned for their imaginary well being.. this honestly made me feel something ;o i read this back in sixth grade or so but never really got to understand it because i didn't fully understand it all because my lack of vocabulary and slang. and well now that i have read it again i know alot more then what i did before and tha tmakes it just the more horrible.
     why on earth would these people do this stuff.. its so disgusting.. this is sometimes even worse then murder in my opinion. murder can be quick and easy but this is long lasting and has horrible scars left on your inner self. this can change you to a different person with these types of experiences and i don't even know why someone would even do this.. its just wrong.. do they have to feel like they are in control of something? well get a job and do something to be a boss but this abuse and stuff is just.. horrible.. gah i swear.. anyone who has done this deserves to burn in hell for all eternity for all that i care.

Racism -.-

oh my freaking... blah! i absolutely can not stand when people are just being plain racist.. gah it just absolutely drives me up the wall when someone chooses their own race over another. i mean honestly people that is really racist. i dont know if you people saw my pole that i was doing "which color is darker blue or green" but yeah i had one and this one girl i will not forget it, she was Asian and she voted for the pole green JUST because khris was doing it. oh my god that really pissed me off. and well i see so much racism with those asian people. they are starting to make themselves look bad honestly. they all go into one line and they wont even barely associate with anyone but the freaking asians. they have made this new thing that says SWAG "something we ASIANS got" no you a freaking racist. go back and use your hmong words so that you can own that word but not swag.. freaking racist people.. i mean it just pisses me off! and half of the people say that they are way religious and that is just bull crap. you can be christan and racist but you can also hide that fact also! i know a few racist people and they hide it so that no one will know and that is fine. but gah these people are just ugly people for being so racist. and yes it is still considered to be racist if you prefer your own race over another. . stupid stupid stupid people.. we are all one race, we all are one species, and you should realize that and notice that you are not above anyone else. because in gods eyes you are still the tiny speck of dust in which he created.

The Rath Of God

the bible and all of the older and younger people in the church society will tell us all that god is a loving god and one that just wants us to be with him forever but there are some things that i have heard and even noticed that kind of contradict this thing.. how can he be "loving" if he plagues an entire society and nearly kills off a nation just to save one people. i think that if he really wanted to he could have just poofed them out of there.. killing off livestock, destroying their water supply, and all the other stuff is not what i can considered loving. you could have made a different decision with probably the same result but without as many casualties. and i have another problem of what he did in Egypt that one time. the whole death of the first born son. why the first born.. the most precious thing to someone is a child and why would you take that away from someone. you should have just killed off the pharaoh and been done with it. don't sacrifice the peaceful children of the city. with the children you have the opportunity to change the world, rather with the lost adults you are already gone.
     Patty i think told us this story one day in Sunday school and it kind of pissed me off? she said something about people transporting the ark or something and that these people were carrying it but with something else so that they wouldn't directly touch it but i heard that it was about to fall on one side and this guy or girl tried to touch it to correct its position and secure its position. but god saw this and he struck him down in an instant. no second chances didn't even reason with this he just automatically kid this man because he tried to save the boat that was about to fall.
     how is this god a loving god if he shows so much wrath towards that don't know him. if he really loved them he would have found a way a better way, this is a confusing area to think about.

Sticks And Stones

 Old Phrase That My Grandma Used To Tell Me Whenever Braxton Would Anger Me, "Sticks And Stones May Break Your Bones But Words Will Never Hurt You"
-over the years and maybe even when she used to tell me this i knew for a fact that this was a false statement trying to prevent you from getting your feelings hurt and well it never did. sometimes being hit with harsh words is far worse then taking any blow from a random stone. i know for a fact that i can hurt peoples feeling far worse with words then i could with any physical action that i could take. how could such small meaningful or meaningless words do so much damage to one person phycological well being when a rock doesnt nearly do as much damage in your physical self. why is it this way? why do words affect us so much? is this a learned trait that we just get or is a natural thing to take words that people say as a personal and meaningful statement. words are the things that cause teen suicides, words are the things that cause people to do stupid things, and words are the things that cause people to feel bad about themselves. rocks dont hurt people for maybe a few minutes or for a second or two. so why do people even say this false statement i wonder. and why are words there to be able to be used as insults and to harm others. is it to hide your own self concious issues.
     I for one am beginning to learn that for one, my words are usually very hurtful when i mean them to and even whenever i dont intentionally mean to. and i also think that i need to stop being so rude with my words        >.< or i could always throw stones at people instead :3