Fall Festival

well today was the fall festival, ended up working from about 4:30 till about 8 and it was a good time, got to work some got to enjoy the people, got to have some fun, and got to see all the people have a good time.
REALITY : OH MY GOSH, tonight was so flippin cold a penguin could have made shelter here! i was about to suffer from hypothermia and i am not even kidding, there was a point that i was litterally shaking and i just wanted to go to the fire and stand there but i had to man my station -.- which brings me to another point
.. those flippin children.. or one in particular.. i just wanted to litterally murder! i dont know if you saw him but he was in a monsters inc costume and well he would come to this game over and over and over again just to touch the worms that were in the third jar and he would tell the whole entire world what they were after he was done and i was just starting to get mad.. i was about to lose my composure but the nice gentlemen that i am.. maintained it and decided to let the kid have his fun and i could just nicely tell him to just be quite and not ruin the fun for the other kids.
     the positive.. i think tonight went really well.. laura and brad did a really good job tonight and i was actually pretty shocked at how great it went tonight :o haha they got it to work outside and it just all went out as it was planned minus the whole running out of food. but yeah it was a good event and i think that the kids and the parents and everyone that went had a pleasant time. one thing that i would like to change.. some kids should just not be able to go to the same game [like mine more then once -.- ] i was literally having the SAME kids over and over again because no one was wanting to do it because of the whole worms thing.. gosh but yea
good time.. good way to meet the people in the public.. good experience.. got sore
GOT MY SERVICE HOURS DONE :D GREAT

B B Q

     well today i officially had my first day of real work. and well my feet are hurting a little, i learned a few things about myself that i pretty much knew, but was just definitive after today.
1. i am a very unsociable person -.-
2. i can work hard, even though i don't want to
3. i really hate to clean -.-
     i really noticed that i never even socialized with the people that were eating their meals or had eaten their meals at the BBQ during the time that i was washing the tables really fast. at times i felt extremely rude because i wasn't being sociable and in others i just honestly didn't care. i found the people that came to the BBQ actually really rude and so i could care less if i was mean to them accidentally. the only thing that mattered in my opinion was that i did not physically or verbally be rude to a customer and just wash my tables because that was my mission that i was to do. and well another thing is, i figured out that i could work hard today, braxton [freaking jerk -.-] sees me as a child who is lazy and untrained to work and that is just going to suffer whenever i get a job. and well today i pretty much proved to him that i can work hard, i do work hard, and that i will be successful. take that ! haha :3 and the last thing, cleaning sucks -.-
     well lets get down to it, today i didn't even see any people even caring about church today, never saw a person even look through a pamphlet or even see someone mention the word god, all i saw was people stuffing their faces and then just talking and talking and talking and TALKING to know end.. so basically in my opinion i only saw today as a way to earn money from the community as a fundraiser for the church, only possible with the help of terry and Teresa. but yeah -.- i saw nothing godly working today, or maybe i was just working to hard to notice
Lesson Learned Today : Most People Dont Think About God When They're Thinking About Is Food

Extended Prayer

oh my gosh this really grinds my gears whenever people really do this -.- extended prayers.. well here is my thinking on the matter at hand.. why on earth would you do this -.- i mean honestly i think that you are either just trying to make yourself look good or you are just trying to get bonus points in heaven or something -.- cause i really don't think it is necessary to drag out a 3 person prayer request into a 15 minute rant on "OH PLEASE help them father" four times in the same prayer -.- honestly if i cant even do a prayer about ten things and make it last about a minute or 30 seconds at least and still get my point across i just dont see why you think it is really important to outstretch it all. we all know that you are trying to make your point across that you want god to help these people or just do something miraculous in their lives but i still dont think he needs you to talk to him like that -.- he already knows what we think and say so i dont think he needs you to rant on to him about something he already knows about!?
well here is my thinking: less is MORE. sometimes if you put way to much stuff into something then it just becomes ruined and less meaningful but if you put something small but with so much meaning into it it really takes your point home.

Jewish People

you know there are a lot of things that i dont know or understand in this world but the truth is Jewish people are also apart of it. they are people who were chosen by god to be his people to worship him and everything but the thing is, apparently they turned their backs on him and didnt believe in him anymore.. well i have a few problems with these people at this moment and have a few questions for them if any random Jew decides to read my post. if your great ancestors were the ones to first hand experience and witness gods extraordinary power then why was your religion and culture the first one to turn their backs on it as well. it is said that he saved you from slavery in your time of need from Egypt, tried to give you this wonderful place for you to live, and just basically paved the way for you so you could have a happy time. but yes i have a giant problem with this -.- WHAT KIND OF AN UNGRATEFUL, SPOILED, PIECE OF BLAH BLAH BLAH could you be to turn your back on it -.- you saw literally everything possible that every single one of us would kill to see in today's society, your ancestors completely took advantage of the gifts and miracles that they saw and they are pretty much at the moment just.. confused little people. lets just say that i dont agree with the choices that your ancestors have made and how they shaped your future beliefs, so yeah basically i am saying -.- i don't understand why they turned their entire religion around in another direction and just decided to not believe in him or anything.. gah you people are strange.

homo -.-

eh very odd, weird, or even bad topic to talk about but we all know that we think about these type of people and we all know why have different feelings about them. and well here is my view on this assortment of people..
    ITS A LIFE CHOICE, i have heard all over the place this this is not a choice but a genetic  gene that you are born with to make you like this and well folks it is not. just because you are an odd kid does not make you a homo you do not have to like the same sex as your own, you are naturally born and designed to be attracted to the opposite sex. i for one know a few people who are gay and well i can tell you straight up they are rediculously fake, i mean this guy.. ugh he is FLAMING and well i aint mean to him because eh thats your deal, have fun with it, im just not going to partake in your littlie gay situations but he is just so fake? i overheard him today saying "oh i wish i was straight so i could date girls, i think it would be so fun :D" eh really kid? its not out of your capabilitiets to date a girl? its your fault that you are acting the way you are and just failing miserable in the path that you are going. mabye these people have had a bad time in their life that drove them to think that they need to behave this way to get the attention that they want. or maybe they are just seriously confused.. anyways that leads me to another point
     REGARDLESS i do not believe that you should show hatred or distaist to these types of people. sure they are doing the worst thing possible in common society besides murder but still i see every guy be rude to a gay guy and really it just makes me feel bad for these people. again like i said before, hey thats your issues and its not none of my business or concern to be rude to you dude. and well i see alot of chirstians and just poeple in general in the world being man and rude to these people. sure we think that they are horrible and that we need to convert them away from this path that they are going down but i also think that there is another way of doing this then hitting them with the bible and cursing words at them. ever seen "i know pronounce you chuck and larry" hey that is a good example of what some "christians" are capable of doing. listen you old people who are stuck in your old ways but look at the facts, do you honestly think that these people want to hear you  preach to them? i dont? so why not show them kindness in a way that they will somehow we are lucky they go away from that path of theirs, but again dont show the hatred, show the kindness.
Think About This : Men Are Men, Woman Are Woman, If Skin Doesnt Color Doesnt Matter, Why Does This?

Trust Fall

Well I am currently in the media center in side of school and I ate my food early and decided to get out of that god awful cafeteria and well.. Why I am in here I might as well do the blog that I need to do today anyways.. So here I go

     Trust Fall – At the soup kitchen yesterday we had the opportunity to get extra points by doing a trust fall off of a giant rock and for me I thought it was going to be pretty easy at first, hey what’s the problem, just lean back and all and they catch you.. No big whoop. But I actually had a giant problem with this once I arrived at the top of this rock. I have noticed sense I went to the ropes course in the sixth or fifth grade that I am horribly afraid of heights in general, I have problems going on rollercoaster’s, jumping from trees, getting on ladders, and eh.. this was just the same in my point of view, but I knew I was going to do this for the points because I have to be able to beat Jordan and Makayla and the rest of the competition >: D and well there is one question that I was asking myself as I was at the peak of that giant rock ready to throw myself down to the earth and hoping and praying that you people would have caught my air born body before a horrible and very painful crash. “why is this so difficult?” why was it so difficult to trust you people to know you were going to catch me, of course I knew you were going to catch me because I knew that you didn’t want to have a lawsuit on your case but really I didn’t have trust in you people or the other common word called “faith”. I had to nearly throw myself down without even knowing it before I could bring myself up to jumping down to the pool of hands ready to catch me. And well there is one of two things that could have possibly happened that prevented me from just jumping down as some of the rest of the people were able to do. Sure It could have been because of my fear of heights or it could have been because of a “lack of faith” that I had in you people. Isn’t in my understanding that we as a Christian group of people are supposed to have faith in each other? Well what’s my excuse? Well frankly I do not have one necessarily and well I need you to come up with an answer for me >.<

Moral Of The Story : Have Faith In Others Or You Are Lost And Alone

Soup Kitchen / Reaching Out

Well i went to the soup kitchen today for one reason and the only reason that i went was for the fact that i need to have eight hours of community service done for the beta club at the end of the year. well i wasn't really thinking that i would be in a pleasant mood this evening you all could guess why, but i had a rather interesting talk with another person and it kinda changed my perspective on how to handle certain situations and well i think that i handled it pretty well tonight. we get there and i am alright pretty happy, god knows i don't like to meet new people or even associate with half of the people that i meet in common society but we all know we have to do stuff like this once in awhile so that we can reach out to those who are lost in the community. sure it was just simple as taking a tray to someone who is hungry when the could do it themselves but most of these people thought this was an extraordinary thing for us to be doing for them. they would shout out "god bless" and "thanks so much" but honestly i didn't see what we were doing as anything of much importance. but apparently it made some of these people happy to see us caring about these people who were either poor and on the streets or just struggling in general. There were a few moments in the time that i was there in which i felt really bad for those people who were having to come to this place and eat this kinda revolting food. i saw some old faces that were there the time before when we came and volunteered and there were some new faces. there was one in particular that i found that made me extremely sad, there was a little girl with ratty hair and skinny as a starving dog you would find on the streets, and wow it hurt to see her. why is it that these people are suffering while we eat a comforting meal everyday of our happy lives. in my opinion it seems as though we try to block out these people from common society so that we don't have to see what is happening to them
Moral Of Today : Reaching Out Isn't Only Good For Someone Else, It Opens Your Own Eyes Also

tGiF

oh my god.. it was SUCH a GREAT day! i mean it just went PERFECT. there was pretty much nothing that could have made my day much better then what it was. in Spanish it was the last day of our substitute and all we had to do was write a story in English and use the vocabulary in Spanish [i thought this was odd but no one was going to tell him anything different then what he thought]. i got done pretty early so i decided to start my book and read it a bit and well i didn't like it -.- i was disappointed actually and it was kinda saddening haha. but...
      in civics we did some useless worksheet that we didn't really even need and then while i was doing that i was also reading it and i was getting SO into it : O you don't even know haha i could have stayed and read that whole book before i got bored of it, it was so good! i was shocked that in a mere twenty pages after i said it was horrible it got REALLY good! and then...
      in biology we watched this video on dogs and the genetic mutations and diseases that are occurring in them because of human error. and well also when this was going on i was reading haha(whenever i am in a reading state i tend to only do that until i am completely done with the book, it is a really bad habit and sometimes it makes my grade fall). and well i was able to pay attention and read at the same time so its okay.and then the best thing of the day was of course
     ART :D the school wanted us to construct posters for tonight's football game against maiden and sense it was senior night also. and well me and Gloria were having a BLAST laughing the whole time and still making our poster look really good surprisingly xD and well me and her are not exactly the most artistically gifted people in the class but we got the poster to look good haha, i was shocked at how good ours look compared to others people o.o. and then i got to go play tennis some.. eh it was alright, and got to get my racquet back, kinda happy about that, and went to Walmart (did not have a stressful time even though it was PACT),, and ate dinner and now im here :D
     Moral of Today's Story: It may seem to be bad for awhile but once the good comes once in a blue moon, its great.
    Moral of Today's Book: Do not judge a book by its first twenty pages.. weight till forty :]

JANET REVIVED / ART 1

omo i get my racquet back tomorrow i am most likely going to cry whenever i get it back [no no no just kidding i don't cry over material objects]. and yeah i am going to get it after tennis, after Walmart, and then i get it :D haha. i want to have my Janet back in my arm ;D haha she is going to be played with till my hands give out haha. i think that this time i might be more comfortable then i was the last time, even though it is the same racquet i am still going to care more because of the new strings it is just like new haha. eh i don't really have much more to say then that pretty much because well what a small topic ;o
     ART 1 art. oh well this week we are currently working on the vanishing point and the horizon line for our new project and WOW it is so complicated to do haha, everything has to like go into this one little point which is the back wall and if i must say so myself mine looks pretty darn good. i have one bed, two dressers, one tv, one picture, a door, and a window ;D haha pretty beast, but that is only the sketch -.- i still have to do it all over again but on a white piece of paper and then i have to color it with color pencils which always makes it look ugly.. eh coloring is lame.. but i think i actually love art class xD its so fun! whats not to love? be creative and just have fun with your work ;D haha i get to draw in there everyday and not get in trouble for it. it is probably the class that i have to work the hardest in but its the class that i have the most fun in also and well i think that it makes it all the better :D haha and want to know what kind of pisses me off? these people in the school talk trash about the teacher just because she is kinda hard nosed on a bunch of the rules in the school and well i don't think that is totally wrong? i mean she is supposed to care about the rules so why is it bad to actual do it? and also i think she is one of the nicest teachers you will actually meet in the school, she cares for the students and actually shows how much care she has for her field of work. eh that bugs me, sure i was one of those people that weren't to happy about her, because of the rumors that i heard but still.. i find it wrong.. and i know now.. lesson to be learned..
Moral Of The Day: Don't Judge A Book By The Rumors You Hear About It, Judge It By Your Experiences First Hand.

Janet

well i have officially named my racquet, and i have come to the conclusion that the name that i shall be using is Janet.. i find that this name is kinda perfect xD works good for saying "oh Janet! cant believe i dropped you" haha  i mean if i can find some cool kind of stamp or writey thing i would put Janet onto this side of the neck :3 haha its going to be awesome to see her whenever john fixes the strings. my friend said that it could possibly take a few days or just one day depending on how many more racquet s he is working on at the moment. haha well lets just say that this is going to be a good reunion whenever i get to see her again haha, i know it seems kinda weird for me to be so excited about getting a material object but you  have no idea how its going to feel to be able to play out there with my racquet and not someone else s haha. yay :D
     bad day, let me just say that this day was unfortunately a horrible day over all, rain, Spanish, civics, biology, art. and yes that is all my four classes and the weather. well if your like me you despise the rainy weather and yeah it just depresses me haha, i don't know but it just does because its all gloomy outside! no sunlight D: but in Spanish we had this STUPID test that the substitute didn't even know what the heck he was doing on. he decided he would make one so that he could know where we were at and well i think he might have alstimers or something because half of the test was just repeated questions over and over and over again! it was insane, i almost go to the point where i wanted to throw away the paper. Civics class we had this  packet to work on because of the test tomorrow and well that wasn't nice cause i hate taking tests -.-. Biology we had a lab on stuff that i am currently confused on because it makes no sense, and yes this is scary  because of the fact that i am used to understanding everything that he teaches in that class and right now i am stuck like glue.. and its pretty darn bad.. and then in art.. we drew some kind of picture and it was nice and all but not what i wanted to do as a ending of a day, and then to top it off there was no tennis which kind of was nice because i didn't want to play today but yeah.. eh just a horrible day,
lets hope i can get Janet back soon.

Beta Club

well i am officially joining the beta club because of a few reasons that really caught my eye
1. good on college transcript
2. good on college transcript
3. GOOD ON COLLEGE TRANSCRIPT
and yes i meant to put that three times because that is the only reason i am joining this club -.- eh i have to maintain a gpa of 3.5 weighted or above (which will be easy) and well that doesnt even concern me, i could make a 3.5 unweighted -.- and well there is a few things that are kinda concerning me about this whole beta club society thing that i have told you guys in the last  post. well i found out today that there are a few things that i have to do to be able to be considered or inducted into the beta club.
1. do eight hours of community service (outside the school) and two hours of community service (inside the school)
2. $20 to be able to join the club at the start
3. If you screw up one time your out and there is no coming back
but hmmm to summarize this thing, i have to do community service and well thats not that bad.. work for church? do a soup kitchen, do a fall festival, do a BBQ, eh that might do me a bit of good. and then paying this twenty dollars.. eh i have some.. don't want to spend it on that but looks like im going to have to -.- and then.. i have to do this whole dress up thing and well i have no clothes to dress up in for this thing which is not going to be good at all.. well i have a few months till this induction ceremony begins so wish me luck...
ALSO lets all have a good smile at the fact that my racquet will be healed hopefully by sometime tomorrow :D gave it to john today and well lets home he gets it and fixs it and that i go get it tomorrow :D ahh if ig et it back i will probably hug it for 2 hours haha, im going to give it a name : P probably janet XD or jane XD haha funny stuff : P eh needs a name so when it gets hurt or scratched i can go "oh!! janet!!" haha : P eh get on here later see ya

Sucky Tenins, Beta Club

     Well today has been officially the worst day of tennis that i have ever played this year.. it was just pitiful.. i wanted to shoot myself because i was so dissapointed. it was like i was watching my on scary movie because all of my shots were weak and they were going out half of the time.. not satisfying at all.. i even had to take a break because i was just getting iritated.. it was really really saddening.
     Now to the more important subject.. Beta Club.. im sure you people all know of this club, smart club, where people with good grades and good gpa make it into it. and well basically you do alot of community service, looks good on your record and you just have to do one initiation thing that you have to dress formal to. and well there is two giant problems that i find with joining the beta club.. i dont have any dress up clothes and i also dont have any money and the fee to join is like 20 dollars.. psh its not that cool to join this club -.- all i want to know is if i join it now do i have to pay this fee every year? thats a giant waste of money in my opinion!! and besides buying the clothes that i have to dress up in is going to be just as annoying -.- im not even sure if i wat to do this club but all i now is that it looks really good on colleges and i just want to get that much... eh i kinda missed out on it last year but i am really considering to join this year.. the meeting is tomorrow and i still have to discuss with my mom all the details after the beta club thing is over with. eh its just a whole blah mess as always
     ALSO - recieved my ten thousand grains of rice today :3 eh got pictures and everything but not so sure if im going to the soup kitchen thing.. everything depends on if that duetch bag piece of S*** doesnt come xD haha dont want another event like the lock in. so i decided to be mature and ask eh hmmmmm to try to make em not come :3 gah aint i a nice person? eh feels ruid but still -.- by gaining that is ruining me.. haha oh well we will see :P good by people

... awkward -.-

alright yesterday i went to my friends birthday party and well let me tell you something that was extremely awkward. if you can imagine this please try -.- white boy surrounded by 30-40 asians at one party and well i knew none of these people except for khris, and crystal [birthday girl] and yeah it was kinda awkward.. hmong party, hmong food, hmong prayer.. eh kinda akward at times cause half of the time i didnt know what the heck people were talking about and i felt just out of place.. i found it kind of irritating at times? thought it was kinda horrible not knowing any of these people.. not knowing what to do.. eating strange food [not saying it was bad, but it was pretty good] and well it just didnt feel.. RIGHT. i found it difficult to talk to people because im kind of a shy person around people that i dont really know and well there came a time that i was all alone throwing quite frisby with random people who i dont really talk to and well that was pretty bad -.- played volleyball for a while and that was pretty weird to.. i felt horrible whenever i did a fail because i couldnt just joke around like they could.. eh it sucked haha. the thing that i was most looking forward to when i was there was pretty much leaving? sounds pretty darn horrible i know.. but i just wanted to get out of there : O i knew we were going to go play tennis after the party was over and well i was pretty darn excited about playing and then we got there and... i sucked -.- hitting bad shots, hitting wayyy out, hitting at the net.. not getting to the ball.. gah it was pretty darn bad so that was another thing that was making the day worse AND THEN my dad showed up and then tried to be sneaky trying to watch me and i noticed and then i had to play knowing that he was watching me play trying to see how good i was doing and that just added to the preasure -.- gah that felt crappy not being able to impress him, even though he said i was doing pretty darn good, i still felt like crap -.- eh a bad day, but it was nice to be able to be there for my friends sixteenth birthday, and also by being the only white kid means that i was the only white kid she kinda wanted to come :3 haha awsomeness

Surprisingly A Good Day Well Most Of It

Well today was one of those days.. got a test in biology got to draw in art got to suffer in spanish and want to comit suicide in civics.. well i had been STRESSING over that test in biology because it was on the same material as last time except it had more things involved into the test that wasnt in it before. and well last night i studied for maybe an hour or more? felt horrible shoving all that biology down my cererbral cortex and well test taking time came in third period. and i SHOVED all that knowledge again down and for 10 minutes of not stop reading and reviewing and remembering as much as i could test taking time came.. sat down with three pencils prepared looking nerdish if i may so myself :] and well it was alright for the most part took it as if it was any other test but went over it and looked at each question more carefully then i did in the quiz previously. and well i made a 100 and that pretty much made my day right there. well i was happy also because i got my friend back in class cause she had been gone for two days at tennis conference. and well i went to art class and got to draw :D and color! and well coloring is soothing as heck and it was nice : P got to blow paint, draw a moon, create and october landscape design for the project and well if i may say so myself it looks pretty nice right now haha.. eh i might not be the best drawer or the best person when it comes to being artistically gifted but i sure can work hard and get the material done that i need to. The ONLY thing that could have made my day better is if i could have given my racquet to the guy so he could fix it. but he is currently out of town so that means i cant play tennis for a couple days and that is going to kill me inside -.- eh so sad... but he is supposed to get back into town on tuesday and he is going to call me and then il give it to him ASAP and he will fix it up just as fast haha.

Broke My Strings

today.. just another day, woke up ready to play tennis later in the afternoon with khris, going to practice, get better (so i can dominate braxton in the future) and well i was paranoid all day thinking that it was going to rain cause well.. look at it outside! its pure bi polar weather out there! have the sky is black and the other half is a beautiful day! but eh we had the courage to go ahead and play out at riverbend and well we started playing for awhile and then i heard a snap.. oh well.. keep playing and well... i started to gradually not be able to hit the balls normal i look at my racquet and a whole column of string was destroyed.. completely in that moment.. and my heart dropped.. my poor racquet.. my poor money D: and khris was laughing saying that i finally lost my tennis virginity -.- not making me feel much better haha. and well we all know that we have to go to this random old guy named john and he is like this god who can fix any racquet and i have to buy them for like 20 dollars and 25 if i want these extra awesome ones. and well i don't know anything about string tension and other stuff because well i don't know it. and i have to get this stuff fixed because i don't want to have to use khris's racquet (exactly the same racquet as mine) and yeah.. so after all of this practice.. after all of this training i get stopped by a brick wall in the shape of broken strings -.- gotta call this dude soon so i can get this fixed.. eh wish me luck people.

PSAT

well today was the day that we had to take the PSAT, this thing that we are offered so that we can make a better grade on the real SAT in the future. well in the beginning i was reallly not wanting to take this thing, why would i? i mean its an extra test that i don't HAVE to take but it just would help me -.- well i ended up being peer pressured into taking it this time and it was actually for the better which is kinda rare. but well there was only a 150 people able to take this thing at one time all year and well i was fortunate enough to make it on the list with  my friends. others who were to sign up were placed onto the waiting list [slim chance you were going to take it] and well today came and its test time. we were given a packet to study so that we would know what to expect and well the test was almost exactly in the same format as the packet was so if you studied it you had kind of a better chance to make a better grade. I think that it was kinda hard to me, and it was confusing in some parts and just blah in others, had some easy questions, had some impossible ones also but eh. im glad that i ended up signing up for this test cause in all its going to help me in the future and it just took a lot of peer pressure to make me do this thing. i can only take it one more year in the future and that is next year and i have to sign up early so others don't get my spot >.< that's what happened to khris. i should get my score back for this test in about.. December? sometime remotely close to that, kinda anxious to get it back to just see how bad i did compared to others, i want to get at least a 1400.. that's what my friend said she got back when she was in middle school and well i hope i don't get a sucky score cause that will make me seem dumb -.- eh well il let you know what happens in a few months. goodbye

Bad Day -.-

you know.. today was just a plain horrible day if i do say so myself. of course i should be happy that there was a three day weekend but gah i was in so much pain having to wake up this morning. i got the anual alarm clock ring in the morning and i looked at my phone with utter disgust refused to get up. so my mom had to come and wake me up like normal. and wow it was so hard getting out of bed! you would not believe it.. i mean some people wake up earlier then me and i just dont see how they do it :o some people stay up later and wake up earlier then me and i dont understand that either. i mean i just have a horrible time waking up in the morning. and from past experience i know that if i have a bad morning then gah im just going to have a bad day in general which was true in the case also. i was just being a plain hateful person ALL day. i didnt want to do work, i didnt want to listen to peoples bull crap, i was just being hateful to people randomly because they were either being rude or just idiotic. sure it was not nice but darn it i was mad and they deserved it. of course i did my work cause im good like that. but why does a morning effect your whole entire day? my reasons are because of..
-tiredness
-low expectations
-bad start
-blah!
i found that i was going EXTREMELY slow in my art project which i am not entirely happy about either because its due friday and im only on the beggining part of it.. is swear to god that if i dont finish it on time i will probably cry -.- i will most likely have to stay after school sometime this week or next so that i can finish it all on time and make it look good. and yeah that ruined my day. i found out that my friend was already done and shes tarted later then me! im JUST on the beggining and not even completely done with that. i think that once im done with the bottom that i will be going faster and better but who knows.. if not doing good tomorrow then i will flip out -.- so gah.. lets hope i do good and lets hope that tomorrow is a better day.

Just Kidding

you know.. this phrase "just kidding" or "jk" is not always a truthful statement as you might have noticed in the ways that you might have used it before. i know that whenever i use it sometimes i honestly dont always mean "just kidding". and i have said this alot in conversations before so why not convert t his into a small topic that could possibley lead into something bigger. well the saying is "in every JK there is a little bit of truth" how is this so? why? well think about it. whenever you are on the internet or txting someone and you say something offensive or rude but then quickly say "jk" your not always completely truthful when you say your were just kidding about that. sometimes you were actually telling the truth but just didnt want to hurt the other persons feelings. ever notice that? i have. this is kind of a.. lieng saying? gah i dont know how to say what i want to say but i know what i mean and you should to. "just kidding" often reveals who you trully feel about a certain topic and its usually the harsh truth that you have said but you hide it behind the "just kidding" i know for a fact that i use it alot so that i dont hurt someones feelings on purpose. its just one of those things that we often dont notice in our everyday conversations. we are a lie filled species you know that. i have read that most people like once about every ten minutes. how can this be? you may not realize it but you do lie alot. we often hide our lies without even knowing it. we are asked how is your day? and you reply oh its good. when its secretly not good. this is a lie. a small lie but a lie. and we just eh phrase just kidding in the same was as any other. its a lie. its a lie filled phrase that we use everyday. there is truth behind a jk. think about it next time someone says it to you.

Tennis, Pushing The Limits

well yesterday i was all alone at home with the family bored to death watching "black swan" and well i got a call from a friend of mine to go play tennis. woah! why not? made me day. so we went to go play tennis for a few hours, and well i got another new blister >.< gah what is wrong with my hands? is it cause i have these ridiculous baby skin XD well i think so haha, and my friend crystal said i should go and buy some tennis gloves. not sure how that would feel or work but i might as well get them so i can stop getting these god awful blisters on my hands. i got a blister ON TOP of another blister and well it hurt like hell and it was gross looking -.- but of course i was still going to hit regardless because i want to play and i want to get better as always. and we played tennis for about.. 4? hours i think? we played from 3 to 8 and volleyball from 3 to 5. but yeah we played awhile and we were doing.. alright.. the blister wasn't hurting to bad until we started to play play [hitting hard giving everything you got] and well it started to hurt again. skin started peeling, shots of pain started to come in but gah i refused to stop playing. stupid? yeah kinda but i have to play ;o its like this disease i have. i refuse to stop playing once i have started no matter how excruciating the pain actually is. but yesterday i found out that as the pain got worse i started to hit worse, started to get mad at myself more for hitting bad, and then got worse and worse.. eh not a good time. pushing your limits is good sometimes but times like yesterday was not really a good thing. but there is one positive thing that i learned from all of it... when you hit a ball [short ball] hit it on the rise so that the other person doesn't have as much time to react. woah! made sense, cause as you do this it gets hit ALOT faster and quicker and the other person almost doesn't expect it coming. so i guess the moral of this little story of yesterday is.. it might of hurt to play but in the end i learned something good for the long run? eh something like that. but hey it was a good day yesterday! cant wait to get my licence so i can go drive myself around to play tennis almost everyday! woot! getting old is fun haha

Preaching In The Public

i find it whenever you see those ridiculous people in the middle of public events or fun places preaching about random topics or ideas that they have, i find it quite annoying? useless? do you?  i would think so because whenever i see those people i honestly want to be nice enough to tell those people that "hey your preaching is not working so why dont you stop and find an alternative way to do this?" we all know what you are trying to do. telling people that it is wrong in abortion that you are against it but its not absolutely a nice way to bring about it saying that you are just going to go to hell for murder if you do this. they were giving out the harsh truth that you are killing innocent babies that are not even born yet but really guys? you dont have to have some poor infant and throwing it int he air showing what people are killing out there in the world. that doesnt make me want to listen that makes me want to walk away and not even give a second thought. if you are trying to reach the public with your message i think you need to find a different or alternative way to do it. i dont know how you are going to be able to do it but why dont you sit at home and ponder it a while. do you think that its a smart move to do this in public because frankly i think that you are pushing more people away then you are bringing them in.
     sure this is a small topic but hey its the hard truth that you need to accept people. i think if you are yelling in public like that its just the same as sitting at home doing nothing.

Looking Back

well.. i have typed all of what happened at the lock, how i felt, what went down, and what i wish i woulda done instead on a different post because it had some rather harsh and mean material not suitable for your viewing eyes. but now that i look back on what happened.. i know that i was wrong in how i behaved and acted but i also know looking back that its not all of my fault. i know that this seems like a normal thing for someone in my position to say "hey its not all my fault! i gotta blame it on someone else to make myself look better!" but no i dont care for doing this for myself because i know how i acted i know what happened and this is my side of the story. sure i was in a bad mood, sure i was happy on the inside being able to spend time with my friend and sure the day went down like a tree struck by lightning. but i should not have acted so.. childish? i took myself away with an attitude and in a blaze of black flames surounding myself. i closed of the world so they couldnt penetrate how i felt and i like it this way. but looking back i should have acted better.. either way i would have still called home because i didnt need to be there suffering in the inside but i could have still hung out with her.. thats a regret i have..
but there is one thought of what could have happened that would have prevented every single thing that happened here tonight. a selfish action. or maybe.. no a selfish action. look here is my thought on relation ships right now [yes you all know who i am talking about right now]. but look you DO NOT bring your boyfriend/girlfriend to things where other people you are close to are going to be. ESPECIALLY if people [like me] despise/hate/dont like/ really dont like/input word here ________... but yeah i think this is so selfish?! you have that person EVERYDAY at school leave him there cause frankly i dont want to see him? i get two days? sometimes one day? to see my friend and you are going to bring your boyfriend/girlfriend here even though you know i hate them with all of my black heart? that is selfish in so many ways? think of others besides yourself. just because you enjoy their company doesnt mean the others around you do also. cause i know for a fact that i am not the only person who doesnt really like him around. sorry but its the truth. so next time.. wait.. there wont be a next time because im not going to a lock in again because i dont feel like wasting my parents gas cause im going to go home probably. but yea reaspect people!
     one regret.. treating you  wrong.. yeah i was jerky as crap.. yeah i was just a plan ________ [input word here] and yeah i was a horrible person and yes i know all of this because i see how i acted and i see how it effected you because i saw the way you look at me and it stung.. one regret i having is not looking back as i left those doors.. i saw you in the reflection of the door and i didnt evevn look back.. what a cold move..

Failed A Test

wow i am so dissapointed in myself.. today i had a biology quiz that i knew was going to come but i took it and was COMPLETELY lost! i studied yesterday and before the test even happened i was still completely lost when i took it.. i guess on almost all of it and i got most of the right with pure luck.. BUT i screwed up on the easiest question because of a stupid miss lettering in the question! i knew the answer! i knew what it was but i put in the wrong letter and i screwed it up completely! gah that ruined my day completely right there. i got a flipppin 79 on it and i knew if i would have gotten that one right then i would have gotten a 86. with only 14 questions in the quiz i knew i had to get alot right. i expected myself to do good and i failed.. its sad. i am currently doing so good in all of my classes but i dont know what my grade is going to be now that i bombed that quiz. my current grades are
Spanish 1- 99
Honors Civics and Economics- 98
Honors Biology - 97
Art - 96
so overall i am doing pretty alright.. wish my 96 and 97 were higher >< gah i knew civics could be higher but other then that all it means is that i have to get better in my classes so i can maintain my grades and get my GPA up! my goal for this year is to get my class rank and my GPA up. i am doing better then what i was last year but its still not want i want to be making.. i gotta improve and i got to get my grades up. education will always come before tennis but right now tennis is in my mind more then educational.

The End of Drivers Ed

wow this has been the longest two weeks i have ever had to go through! its litterally hell on earth ;o pardon my french but its the truth! haha. we had to take about 5 pages of notes a day front and back. so it wasnt the funnest part of my day. made me stay at school everyday for 12 hours but hey i guess its worth it in the end? but wow today?! let me tell you something, we were all stressed about this 200 question test that we had to go through and yeah we all were scared we had to hours to take it and well i think i did pretty bad! some people already got to hear their grades and they failed and have to take drivers ed all over again.. that is the saddest thing i have ever heard of : O to think that they have to take all of those notes again watch all of those movies all over again would kill you so much inside! how could you stand it?! and this poor girl of mine is not the best test taker because when she is under preasure alot she just freaks out really bad. and well now i am pretty sure she is going to have to go through it all again. she even prayed like crazy before the test because she wanted to have help whenever she took the test and its sad to know that it didn't even work. well i hope that she does better the next time she goes through the class. and hey but i am out of it and i get to have tennis in my life again :D i get to go play now and i get to play and play and play and play and play and play and play! i get to serve and practice and play and battle and improve and fight and earn my spot on the team! i am determined to get better and i have to get better because it is my dream that whenever i am a junior or a senior that i get to be number one on the team.. well stay up to date with my blog and il tell you how im doing in tennis and in life!

RUDE PEOPLE

i am so tired of having classes with those spoiled rotten girls who think they are better then anyone else! these white girls think they are gods for goodness sake and they think that if they dont have their way that you are just a waste of space and you should just go away! this girl in my class who i can not stand beyond belief. she had "the sun" in her eyes a LITTLE (like when blinds have those little circles because sunlight leaks through) and she was complaining that she couldnt do anything because of this. my teacher the nice older lady that she is was nice enough to attempt to push the blinds in a certain position to illiminate the blinds. but still she didnt like it so she still complained. she apparently things that she is too good for anything and this blows my minds! i can not believe how and why this person is the way she is! did her parents not even raise her in a right way? do you find being rude and disrespectful a good behavior for your kid to have? cause i dont! again i have her in this other class and she is even worse if you can believe it?! we are technically not allowed to have our ipods and phones out during class and well she found it appropriate sense she had nothing else better to do but txt with her phone out in the open (not even trying to hide it) and listening to her music. and the teacher nicely asked her to put it away (and the teachers are technically supposed to take it in that one instance). and so she gave an UGH cause apparently this was UNBELIEVABLE that she couldnt break this rule -.- there is always alot more to this types of people but this is an example of how kids and teenagers these days act! its unbelievable i swear to god i will never let brianna get that rude. i will be the voice of reason in her life that will keep her grounded like the girls in school should be.

TOP 6: D

want to know something good that is happening to me lately this years? well apparently khris says that i am probably good enough to be 3 maybe, or four, but that is actually a really good thing to say to someone like me! i mean the top six is made of the top six best players on the team and in the school and the top six fight for the school to win their games to help win the matches. and well of course thats cool but guess what is even better? the sweet feeling of knowing that i can beat braxton and nick [who has been my competitor for a WHILE]. HE has been my main competition for months now and i have always been the underdog who they all had no faith in and thought nick was going to beat me. but want to know whats funny? i can probably beat him these days, im more consistent, hit angles, hit hard but not as hard as him, and can aim. all things that you NEED to be able to do to be a great tennis player. and the only thing that lacks from me that is of course the most important thing that you need to know, serving. i find its kind of insane that i dont know how to use it but i should. but its a truth, i need to get better, i need to practice more but i always forget and just focus on hitting! eh il get it one day but for now i need to focus on improving things, but starting this upcoming week after drivers ed ends i am going to start serving every practice for most of the time so i can practice getting it in. wish me luck everyone.

Animal Cruelty

You  know what i honestly hate? when animal cruelty happens.. it just rattles my bones gives me chills or whatever you want to call it it just really bothers me. i swear.. i am not that much of a lover of dogs but seriously it just drives me insane to see a dog get hurt or bothered in a way that would make them screech. why am i talking about this? because we are currently dog sitting my grandmothers dog while she is having her bad week of chemotherapy and my little sister just enjoys to hurt the dog! she will yank her tell, squeeze her feet, pull on her back fat, sit on her and its a LITTLE dog! and well i do what anyone with common sense would do and smack the kid and throw her away to protect the dog. sure the dog can bite her or nibble on her fingers or just screech trying to get her away but why  not just nip it the bud and just stop the cause THE KID. and well apparently its the wrong thing to do because mother yelled at me for doing it because "oh.. shell learn eventually she will learn to stop once she gets bit" NO?!?!?! i don't want the dog to suffer because of your cruel child. sure she is a kid but that is no reason to let her behave like she rules the freaking world? who gives a crap that she is a girl, beat her like a boy and make her stop. the dog knows to be gentle with her so of course she is not going to bite her hard! she avoids her at all cost but then Brianna comes right back fallowing her trying to hurt her. and i flip out.. sorry but i don't care who you are? don't mess with an animal?
     dog fighting- what kind of a sick b****** would ever enjoy to watch dogs fighting each other to survive? you must have some kind of mental sickness because that is the most revolting thing. if you are even participating in this crap i think you should go to jail for life! or even die for all i care! you kill and torture dogs for fun and entertainment for gods sake... what is wrong with you??!? its sickening to even think about.. i couldn't imagine the kind of stuff they are put through everyday.. gah.. its so wrong! you know people im going to go out and say it because i care to  much not to.. if you participate in dog fighting i think you should die.. you are a waste of a human life if you enjoy killing and torturing dogs. its to me just the same as being a psychopath on the street picking up people and making them fight each other to the death every night for entertainment..

KICK SERVE :DDDD

haha what a good way to end the day! i had a horrible.. well not horrible day at school today but it was pretty sucky but then i had drivers ed that just made it worse but then the miracle came that i got to go down and play tennis for a little bit. and while i was down there Ryan who is a graduated senior was there and well he hadnt played in a while and he is a PRO at serving. he was there with justin and khris and alex's dad and they were playing so i was all alone serving to my lonesome and i was doing pretty good if i say so myself. and well he asked if i wanted to kickserve and i was like "heck yea" and he showed me somewhat how to do it and well its not the easiest thing you will ever learn.. it involves you having to bend your wrist all the way back and hit the ball by hitting over it. yes sounds very complicated which it is but all i learned is that you  have to have no focus,  just joke around and act like you dont care because i honestly get it in better. ah it is a good day because of that, serve was goodish, and kick serve worked once so now i get to practice more!
     I have one thought would it have been rude if i would have asked alex's dad to get off the court or just let me hit with them because i needed a lot more practice and he didn't? i mean they had been playing awhile before i got down there and alexs dad is wayy less good then all of us but yeah would it have been rude if i asked him to get off so that i could have played? or was it the right thing that i went to go serve by myself and either way i had a pretty good time but i wonder if playing would have been funner haha. anyways this is a non religious good blog

Favortism

Is it wrong to have favorites? on anything? well i dont honestly think so i like my friends better then my enemies, i like novak djokavic better then i do rafael nadal. but when i think that favortism gets wrong is when you bring it into the school system. i dont like it how most coaches as teachers usually or tend to love the atheletes better then anyone else in the class, often give them special treatement or le ways so that they can plass the class easier, well this was horrible in middle school, not so bad not but still something that URKS me. why do teachers find it ok to have favorites in the class, i mean its nice that you can have a conversation with a student but when you treat them better then another student or give them more attention the rest i think that it is getting to a wrong point and that it is going way to far. i dont think that many teachers see themselves doing it really but just go with the flow because they dont have that good of a bond with the other students. i know from my point of view that i dont really socialize with my teachers but i see them having alot of favorites going along to the side with the preppy girls or the jocks of the classroom and so it creates this strange air in the room. is it right to have favortism inside the class or even anywhere? give an opinion cause i think its wrong what do you think?

Public Disorders

Sometims if you havents noticed, you have someone in your family that acts totally different in public rather then how they act say if at home. well... sorry to say this but braxtons is the perfect example! at home is just a normalISH person who is still jerky and rude but at school let me tell you something it is two times worse, just add a bit of testosterome and alot of bs and you will realize how much of a difference he is! i mean honenstly in my opinion he is putting on a giant show? weird? i have never understood it i have noticed it for a long time ever sense he had a birthday party and he was acting really weird? me? psh.. i dont care who you are but im going to be ME not anyone else or not who you want me to be. but for some reason i dont think he knows how to be himself? why do people do this? not enough social skills? it just seems that he is trying to fit in so bad or something that he has to.. act different? i am not sure, maybe this is how he is and he just acts different around home? eh not sure but the truth is i think its kind of annoying? have you ever had a friend that you hang out with them they are all cool and alright but when they go off with someone else they go off and are completely different well in todays high school years they are currently calling it being two faced and well its not a good thing to be called.. these types of people just change? cant be themselves? i dont know why? we dont know why? but i see this in alot of peole these days.. i hope im not? because i dont feel as tho i am? but seriously people? grow up, stop trying to fallow the society that people have built around you and be your own person stand up out of the crowd and be you and not be you hiding behind a mask of deception. the public may be a rude and scary place but that is no reason to change who you are for the public, the public should accpet you for being who you are. eh small topic but it really just.. gah bugs me..

What Gender? What Race?

Woah! ever noticed that in the bible it never said that god was male or female? or what race he is? cause what if you are a racist and gods ends up being that race that you just dont like? would you make an eception to it or not? that could possibley be a giant problem? what if he is a girl? could you accept that? which i seirously doub that he is a girl because jesus always said in the bible that the FATHER and all that other stuff.. but hey is it possible? or are we just not going to be able to see him because he is to good. did noah look at the shadow of him or something and go blind or something? haha but seriously what if god is a mexican or something? black? white? asian? nothing? just something! that could be weird or unexpected? i know alot of people that could possibley be mad that he was a diffenent race? i doub that he even will be a race because he is just going to be.. something else? but yeah i do think he is a dude haha but yeah short topic but just something to ponder.. what if.. what if.. what if..

ALIANS o.O Here? Exist? Or Not?

Alright well we talked about this tonight at my church and well its an interesting topic if you actually go into deapth with it i could debate on this topic all day possibley on the possiblities or not of having acutal life out there. Well.. i can honestly say that i dont know what to think haha. I think that their could possibley be life out there or possibley could have been life out there. Most people dont? Some do? What bout you? Before you debate look at some of these things that i think could help sway your mind to a certain side of the board or move you to my indipident cluelessness.
- Aliens Do Exist - What if there is another  life form out there that some of us are all  dreaming about and that the  movies have depicted in movies. if there is why havent they found us? what if we are the more advanced species? god never said that there couldnt be other life forms out there? so technically there possibilities are endless. if there are NUMEROUS galaxys out there and a giant universe filled with planets and different kind of enoviorments and suns and stars why wouldnt there be life out there besides us? seems like a waste of space dont you agree? why wouldnt we be sharing it with something else? what if god gave up on man and went to another planet for a backdrop if we got to bad? haha good thing noah was there :3 but yeah? i could seriously see there being aliens out there? i mean i think that people have found water on other planets? frozen water. so why wouldnt there be life. organisms need water to survive.. so there is the water.. go survive on it haha
-Alines Do NOT Exist - Hey we are all alone in this vast universe that god has created for us and we are the only ones that will ever have intelligent life. there is not possible way that there are aliens want to know why? because we have not found any livable planet besides ours. there are not even organisms on other planets but just a bunch of little moon rocks 0.o psh aliens are just something that movie directors created one day so that people could have something to spend money on. have you ever heard of people seeing "flying saucers" well in the 1960s or before there were people all saying that aliens were flying around near area fifty one but turns out that it was just some plane that they were test flying and they were using the publicity of the flying saucer or aliens to hide the base and the plans of the plane from the public. and i honestly think that people who have "seen" real aliens or have been abducted were just some people dreaming or fantasizing haha, we are the only life forms
What are your opinions? found any hard core evidence?

What If We Are The Wrong Faith?

I Seriously Doubt If Anyone Has Not Thought About It. What if we are the faith that is wrong and say some other is correct? like a Muslim or a Buddhist? What if we die and nothing just happens? [i seriously hope not]. We all believe in our hearts that Christianity is the true faith and that god is there waiting for us. But what if we are wrong? and then we turn into something else and our reborn or turned into something else? What if we do something else for some other religions beliefs. this is something that i fear.. wouldn't that just SUCK? how do we know? or do we just guess based off of our beliefs. i know that drew said he had seen god working in his life already but honestly i haven't? i have not seen a full blown miracle. or maybe i have just not seen it? im sorry but people i would rather know that god was there and that there was some way possible undeniable truth that he is there. wouldn't it be easier and better if he would just talk to us? show himself? why doesn't he? that would make every come to this faith? i just don't understand why he does some things.. why is everything just so complicated or it just doesn't work the way that i think it should. their is no denying truth that their is even a god..? we could all be wrong right? Most religions have a book of religion.. most have stories of how their god showed his power. i would love to see that power in today's society. why cant it happen? cause gah.. my mind is a doubtful mind and i have some strong disbelief's in this religion stuff. some people who are teens these days seem like they are head over heels in love with god but how can they? they are either 1) brainwashed or 2) not excepting to themselves that they have doubts.. is their even a way to know if we are right or wrong probably not.. but all i can hope for is that god has some miraculous plan in my life because right now im just >.<

Abortion The Topic We Avoid

Abortion.. we all know it, we all try to avoid the conversation. I am going to go ahead and put this out there that i dont know which side i am on for this topic..yes its a horrible thing that almost anyone should not do but i do believe that there are some exceptions on the conditions that some people should be allowed to have this done. Of course i don't believe that girls as teenagers who screw up and get pregnant should get an abortion because hey what is the baby going to do? its going to just be another part of you in your life to make you a better person in most cases. And i believe that once you have the baby that you are going to enjoy it.. well after all the crying nights end. BUT some conditions on the people who might actually need an abortion.. say you have someone who was raped and they became pregnant by their raper what then? and that baby would remind them everyday of what that man did to her..i believe that that might be an exception you honestly might have to make.. i don't know how someone could live with themselves if they did have an abortion but i don't know how someone would  do if they didn't and had the guilt or shame of having it. i am absolutely against having an abortion for teenagers but i also do believe that some people should have an exception or speech on why they believe they MUST have it. I know this is a touchy subject for a lot of people and i also know that most people would yell at me for even considering it to being partially right. But be in another persons shoes for a moment. think for awhile. comment back.

Emo Vs Suicidal The Difference

You know.. this really bothers me whenever i hear someone calling someone "emo" because they cut their wrist. but well this is not emo that is considered to be suicidal. emo is the shortened term of "emotional" yes these people have emotional problems but because of them slicing their wrists it makes them the other term suicidal. to atempt to kill yourself or to succeed. yes its a sort of pointless topic to discuss but its true! i have met many people in my life already that have been or currently are suicidal people. they cut their wrists for dumb reasons as in how they look, relationships, or family problems. seventh grade i was introduced to this problem with this really beautiful girl who rode my bus that carved "death" onto her leg the previous night with a razor. why did she do this i asked? turns out that her and her boyfriend had a slight fight and well she took it out on herself. THAT is the difference between an emotion person and a suicidal. the emotional bottles up their emotions and keeps it to themselves in a safe manner while the suicidal is going to put themselves at risk of death and injury.. one thing that i will probably never understand is WHY they seek enjoyment  or fulfillment out of cutting themselves.. what could you possibly gain from harming your own body and disfiguring it? If you honestly have any reasonable thoughts on why they do this comment! if you have done this comment i want to find out! if you have read this stop calling people "emo" [if they cut themselves] and tell them the hard truth that they are indeed suicidal.

What Do We Do?

I have thought about this a few times in my many years of life and well i have noticed that Christians are a bit more.. outgoing then the others? good or bad? eh sometimes it can be good but gah it can get horrible at times. What other race goes up to you at random places of fun and shoves their religion down your throat. if you saw a group of Muslims or Buddhist say.. at the October fest preaching about their religion what would you do? well most Christians or well the older kinds would probably throw a bible at their face! why is that we are so.. violent? or blah about how our race is better then the rest. i know that we are supposed to look out for the good of the people but sometimes if i was some of those other people i would rather not have you shove your religion down my throat and let  me find my own path. Lets do a recap of what i just said.. anything click? well to me.. it makes it sound like the christian faith is a little blah towards anyone else that is not with their faith. they are to me turning their backs on you and condemning you to hell already. yelling at someone telling that they are wrong or saying that they are just stupid is not the way to save a soul. Its kind of a touchy situation you see? we need to save the souls but how? some people are just so against being preached to or.. they believe in their faith so strongly.. its kind of a lose lose situation.. so the questions stands.. What DO We Do?

Fighting or Being The Bigger Person

Alright well this isnt really recent news but there was a time sometime this year that i honestly thought i was going to get into a fight with some. eh and now that i look back on it, it seems really dumb of how i was acting -.- and the gay reason was that this dude was going around talking to my friends saying that i was this "horrible person that was just going to hurt them in the end" and gah i got mad >.< i thought that i was actually going to find this person and just punch him till his face was broken.. and well then a few days past and they still wanted to fight but gah i didnt have the urge to fight. INSTEAD i decided to send a message saying that kind of a duetch he was. and he messaged back saying that he was ready to fight but then i had changed to not wanting to.. funny how things change after awhile huh? i find it odd how sometimes you think you really want something but it turns out to be something that you wantedED. Turns out that instead of being the "mad" person i decided to be the matur one and was all like "eh you can act like a little thirteen year old child and il just let it slide because no matter what im still going to be on top of their world and you will always fall short :]" I found it was a much better spot being the biggger person then being the mad testosterome filled teenager boy. so here is a hint to all of you wanting to fight for no real reason. [unless they are talking about your family or just honestly doing some REDICULOUS things] be the bigger person or wait a few days to see if your feelings change about the subject cause i know mine did. so i think you have an equal chance too.